Saturday, February 21, 2009

I had a dream about talking fish. The big one kept on telling me, "Why would you put a party of kin and fish?" because I had put in small and big goldfishes into the tank with him a little while ago, but now they were gone. For some reason, he ends up out of the tank numerous times onto the floor or someplace dangerous.

My other dream was about me and my boyfriend floating on top of floating desks above an ocean, and I am piggy bank riding on him. He keeps on jumping on top of the desks one after another until suddenly he loses grasp of me and falls to the bottom into the ocean/rocks and thne suddenly I am going down.. down too yet suddenly a wheelchair appears under me and I calmly am retreated near a wall of colorful rocky granite.

Friday, February 20, 2009

The Alchemist sort of reflects the different journeys like the book series from Cassandra Clare. In the story series of (City of Glass, City of Ashes, City of Glass) Clary Fray has to deal with her life as a shadow hunter and has to create her own self and follow her heart, but then she has to also deal with problems due to her family and love for someone that turns out to be family. Jace Wayland; her brother that she finds out about and they have to deal with their feelings of love for one another.. It's centered around her own adventure between the human world and the shadow hunter world that has been shut out of her life so then that she could be supposedly protected from the evil lurking there due to her father. She is finding her own personal legend through fighting against evil, learning more about herself, and dealing with "listening to her heart".

Sunday, February 15, 2009

"Greed, also called Avarice or Covetousness, is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual"

The theme:

"Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or
situation"

Linked from : Greed - Sins

Liked from : Glutton - Sins

Personally I think envy means much more than just a wish to have something
someone else has. To me, it means also ACTING AGAINST that person,
"revenging" in a way, trying to take the "object of our desire" away from
them, or backstabbing them in some way etc.
That is why myself I consider envy the "heaviest" sin of all seven.

symbolism:
- snake - as I mentioned, envy, to me, is connected with cunning and doing
something behind one's back

- poison ivy leaf in the frame (and the column)- maybe just a word play, but
I always connected ivy with destruction of some sort... Growing using a
different object as a "support"... Something like that ;]

- color green - i guess it needs no comment

Gluttony or Gula. An excess of anything in possession. Gluttony is most usually defined on excessive food intake. It is one of the Seven Deadly Sins wherein most people nowadays commonly commit. Though it’s not necessarily for food alone, it may also be referred for other things such as too much possession of money or power.

This is reality. People tend to absorb or indulge something which they desire the most to the extent that aside from what they’ve already in possession wherein we may assume is already sufficient, they still want to seek more. What is not good about this is when people are into this execution, others are consecutively affected to the point that they later suffer.

For instance: You, as someone who is in practice of gluttony, already have a pair of snacks inside your bag. It is already quite enough for a whole meal. But then, you met an opportunity wherein you may even grab more snacks. You snatched it away without realizing that there are still people who could have had that food.

We can’t blame that there are people who are like this. But we may let them know how deadly these are in the eyes of our God. We may not know what are the consequences and the proper judgement, but definitely, if people with the same personality keeps on existing in this world, we’d have no peace. We won’t even be able to experience the thrill of a perfect lifestyle.

Friday, February 13, 2009

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Baby polar bears, did the script today w/ Israel during second period.

PANTALAIMON SCRIPT

LYRA DIALOGUE ENDS.
YOU RESPOND AFTER SHE SAYS, “Why did we even come here in the first place? I’m scared, hungry, cold, and most of all.. We can’t find the children and their daemons…” .

(PANTALAIMON, standing closer to her face)

PANTALAIMON : “It’s alright Lyra…”

PANTALAIMON : “We must find a way to get back to the others, quickly…”

END OF YOUR DIALOGUE.
LYRA RESPONDS.

YOUR RESPONSE AFTER SHE SAYS, “Hah! Forget it Pan, The Egyptians and Iorek could hardly ever find us! Not in this storm, that is…”

PANTALAIMON : “Don’t worry! You can’t give your hopes up! We wouldn’t have been able to come here at all to meet all of these people and learn all these things.. If it hadn’t been for you, Lyra!”

END OF YOUR DIALOGUE.
LYRA RESPONDS.

YOUR RESPONSE AFTER SHE SAYS, “It sounds like your blaming me for this mess we‘re in!?”

PANTALAIMON : “Nono, not like that! That’s not what I meant, Lyra! I would never! You know as well as I that you believe we’ll save your father, the children, and everyone else in this and defeat those gobblers! It means something. It means that you’re the only one who can read the alethiometer…for a reason! More than anyone else! And you know it, don’t you Lyra?!”

END OF SCRIPT, GET LYRA’S HAND. PULL HER UP STANDING, AND BOW.

LYRA SCRIPT

(LYRA on scene; in fetal position, shivering)

LYRA BELAQUA : “Brr… It’s so cold Pantalaimon.”

LYRA BELAQUA : “Why did we even come here in the first place? I’m scared, hungry, cold, and most of all.. We can’t find the children and their daemons…”

END OF YOUR DIALOGUE.
PANTALAIMON RESPONDS.

YOUR RESPONSE AFTER HE SAYS, “We must find a way to get back to the others, quickly…”

LYRA BELAQUA : “Hah! Forget it Pan, The Egyptians and Iorek could hardly ever find us! Not in this storm, that is.”

END OF YOUR DIALOGUE.
PANTALAIMON RESPONDS.

YOUR RESPONSE AFTER HE SAYS, “Don’t worry! You can’t give your hopes up! We wouldn’t have been able to come here at all to meet all of these people and learn all these things.. If it hadn’t been for you, Lyra!”

LYRA BELAQUA : “It sounds like your blaming me for this mess we‘re in!?”

AFTER HE SAYS, “Nono, not like that! That’s not what I meant, Lyra! I would never! You know as well as I that you believe we’ll save your father, the children, and everyone else in this and defeat those gobblers! It means something. It means that you’re the only one who can read the alethiometer…for a reason! More than anyone else! And you know it, don’t you Lyra?!”

END OF SCRIPT, GET PANTALAIMON’S HAND. PULL HIM UP STANDING, AND BOW.



POEMS ]

Spirit Succubus

Body shakes violently at the thoughts
The pressure of the slight thudding pulses
Entity of demon - monster
Thou consuming and skin against mine is burning fire
Body can only remember, to contain the pain& tinge
Pleasure of being taken into the depths of blazing seas
Swallowing the salty fluids wiping in condensation
Eyes can only stare
Watching every movement, to see if the feeling of ecstasy
Will betray fleeting resistance
Oh Incubus, so soon I become one of the creatures - the species
Wrought with psychotic rages of this nature
Equaling the end of this human life that takes away
Another mind in sexual encounters between the natural ivy
Green beds between the sun and shadow moon encases our souls

Cold Body's Withdrawal


Withdrawal..
The petal's position calls
They cannot even feel the pounding rain
He said, "Because the feeling numbed anyways."
It's cold and the walls, the shelter
Cannot protect the soul that's inside
An egg falling, collapsing
To the cracking scars wanting more
To break, to unseal, to become
A newborn, to be born dead
Was your name to begin with; a unique aspiring persona
It never made sense
Spreading blue then red
Travelings out of those deep dark
Veins..Veins..Veins..

Sordid Rapist : Selfish Fuckers

To hide under the skin, the breasts, the pits, the stomach
And the lungs
You leech, the leech
You insert yourself
Inside, under crawling and infecting me
Pierce the flesh and feel the pain of a thousand souls
To delete the important memories
Will curse you with the stab
Of the red bloody crunch of your bones
It is mine and not yours
Die in something that was never you
You were the curse of the corrupt
My hate and satiation of your death
You reach, but nothing was ever there
You are only unselfish
In the generosity of unwanted torture
You sordid rapist
The fucking fucker, you
When asking for that material, that physical
Yet was selfish in every second
They were crying for yourself to die
To endure that pain that was never even inflicted on you
Until the hell that consumes, fire engulf
Engulf him. Engulf the male.
The man who stole, steals, and takes.. EVERYTHING.
In the eyes of my thirst for your demise
Its an acid of cold consumption on the lips
Deteriorate, deteriorate, deteriorate
Kill the liquid, the touch, and the lust
Of everything that once existed
In all of the lives
That should never have even taken a breath..
Where we can be free of the impure and the pure
NOTHING.

Internal Variante

My eyes catch the form, the face of one I've seen before
Oh yes, you are the one
A person from the time when who I had spoken with
Now you are gone
In another time, another world, and another life
I cannot speak with you, for you are someone else
Merely an immense shadow growing inside my mind
Attaching the faces of souls
With the killing strength of a chimera
All I can do is hold myself back
Watching with eyes of a hawk, like a god in a seat of defective feelings
Controlling slowly then turned upon with strings of a puppeteer
My puppets are merely connected to my soul,
Then entirely controlling me, by strings of internal emotions
The organs, pumping, living, feeding..
INTERNALLY

Deadly Vanilla

It belongs to us
Tonight we swallow our beliefs and the undenying love
Cold vanilla released, ingredients of screaming macabre dreams
Yet you don't seem to understand
Burst to blame this constant bland
Broken hymen, if I'm a target
shoot me while you can!
Planting

To dream that you are planting something, represents your faith in what will happen in the future. You have an optimistic view.

Plants

To see plants in your dream, indicates fertility, spiritual development, growth or the potential for growth. Alternatively, the appearance of plants in your dreams reflects your caring and loving nature.

In particular, to see indoor plants in your dream, suggests that your growth is being hindered or slowed in some way. You are experiencing a lack of independence. Alternatively, the dream signify your desire to be closer to nature.

If you are estranged from your children, then the plants can be seen as a representative for your your children.

School

To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about performance and abilities. If you are still in school and dream about school, then it will naturally serve as a backdrop to your dream world.

Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life. You may be going through a "spiritual learning" experience.

To dream that you are looking for a school, suggests that you need to expand your knowledge and learning.

To dream that your childhood school is in ruins, suggests that you are dwelling on some unresolved childhood issue. Alternatively, the dream represents the passage of time. You need to look toward the future instead of reliving the past.

Teacher


To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, it may relate to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may be going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.

To dream that you are a teacher, indicates that you are in a position of disseminating your knowledge and wisdom to others. Alternatively, it could imply how you are "teaching someone a lesson" and giving them a hard time about something. If you are a teacher in real life, then the dream is just a reflection of who you are and your dreams about work.

To dream that you are having sex with a teacher, implies that there are still things you need to learn when it comes to sex.

Wings

To dream that you have wings, suggests that you are soaring to success. You are on the right track. Alternatively, you may be trying to escape from a difficult situation or you are soaring with success.

To dream that you have the wings of an angel, indicate your sweet, angelic quality. Or you may be in need of some protection from life's stresses and problems.

To see the wings of birds, indicates your desire for a freer way of life.
The highlights and lowlights of reading are that you end up getting dissapointed sometimes with the ending of the story or you feel sucky about stopping with your reading @ times. There are dead ends when it comes to writers and also for readers at points, but the stories nonetheless leave people satisfied for some. The books that I've recently read are :
Surrender
City of Ashes
City of Bones
The Golden Compass
The highlights of reading are that you get pulled into a world where you can sympathize with the characters and enter a world that makes you feel like your a part of the lives nonetheless. I end up learning a lot from the stories such as Surrender because of the different way the characters affected eachother the same way that people are affecte in real life. It's really crazy the way there are different symbolizations and at one part the main character kills his parents due to the people in his life always controlling him. He feels that maybe it something easier in order to cut off ties with people he thought were a greater part of his life yet treated him like a belonging (item).
c. Predict what happens to the main characters (or the minor characters) after the end of the book (it's like you're writing the sequel).

e. compose a song or poem based on your book and include it on your blog, along with a short reflection of how it connects to your book.
f. select a photograph or symbol of some kind, cut and paste it into your blog, and explain how it connects to your book (you could also draw or create a visual representation and place it on your blog).

Sequel to City of Ashes

I spoke with the woman who knew my mother this even.

*****

"My mother.. knew you? What can I do to save her?" I yelled automatically. I wished for anything, but I was still bawling from my encounter with Jace. Oh.. Jace. I wish that I could save it. Seal all of my emotions away, if I could've done something. To just tell him. I wanted to. So much. And now my chance is gone. Forever.

"You must seep your blood on the grounds of the earth, and defeat your father. He had seiged an curser on her. It has left her in a coma of lifelessness. In order to deafeat the curse.. You must kill him."
-----


Cities of Bones, Ash, and Shatter Glass by Julie Khov


It's cold by fire to

Step forward

And taste the warmth

Of dripping tears and thirst for the bloodlust

To save you

To save you

It doesnt matter anymore

It doesn't matter

Whether we are connected

Through some other way

Through the walls

Of fire, ash, and burning bones

We sealed our life together once more

To save you

To save you

Undeniable endearment

You tried so hard

Yet crying won't save you

When the music travels

To an atelier of somewhere else

Save you

Save you



School Assignment Due : 2/27/09

To weeks away until next next Friday on the 27th. I really need to get all the signatures. I need a total of 43 signatures. Oh crap, but I really need to finish this. I really need to. I want to get an "A" on this assignment and I've already tried to start. I bet this will take forever.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Grace With Fire Blog; concept of listening to one's heart

Feel Power Listening To One's Heart

Listening to your heart is the concept I am focusing on in the story "The Alchemist".

"Even though I complain sometimes," it said , "It's because I'm the heart of a person, and people's hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they dont deserve them, or that that they'll be unable to achieve them. We their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren't, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly."

Quotations of Pualo Coelho

Our Assignment Today

Due: Today

Step 1: Create a new post that describes your reading life so far this semester (yes, I know we are just one week into it!). You can talk about your indie reading book or our shared reading book, The Alchemist. You can choose from the following menu of ways to respond to your reading (or think of your own).

a. Create a diary/journal entry from your main character's perspective (you put yourself in your main character's shoes and write like you ARE them).
b. Mini theme analysis (discuss what you think one of your themes might be and why you find it interesting/important)
c. Predict what happens to the main characters (or the minor characters) after the end of the book (it's like you're writing the sequel).
d. Connect your book to some other kind of text: a movie, tv show, song, another book, article, poem, or story, or your own life experience. Explain the connection and how you discovered it.
e. compose a song or poem based on your book and include it on your blog, along with a short reflection of how it connects to your book.
f. select a photograph or symbol of some kind, cut and paste it into your blog, and explain how it connects to your book (you could also draw or create a visual representation and place it on your blog).
g. Write a letter to someone you know and explain why you think they could benefit from what you are reading (or something you have read).
h. Reasearch a topic that has come up in your reading, and find out more about it, then describe the connections to your own life as well as the original text.

Step 2: Add links to other students' blogs in the class. Then, visit their blogs, read them, and leave a comment on their blogs responding to something they wrote. You should visit at least 5 other students.
http://princessleiasgalaxy.blogspot.com
http://www.blogger.com

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

The usb I need is located at Kodak EasyShare M763 USB Data Cable. It costs $8.99.

I have to go in the morning tomorrow to clear my absences for periods one and two even though I attended period one and my second period has a sub plus I was on a field trip. How stupid of my teachers and the attendance people. It's so annoying to have that kind of stuff happen every time I go on a fucking field trip. Except my first period is fucking unacceptable because I was there, it's probably because Mrs. Ma didn't even put it in probably. Fuck!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I'd probably want to live somewhere like France or Japan or somewhere near where I can see the Aurora (northern lights). I also want to have a dog; specifically a Siberian Husky with heterochromia (different eye color due to distribution of melanin in the irises) or a brown fur coat.





When I get older I want a Siberian Husky!



Monday, February 9, 2009

Second Semester

Today I mostly got the people in my class changed. Bummer. It sucks butt. I don't have Jessica, Phong, or Lily in my classes anymore so I am alone in those classes.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

I hate it when she gets angry with me. My stomach is growling. I mostly just showered and got in trouble because my mom had found the DS in my sister's pillowcase. Yeah right Linda.. "Teach me how to be slick", my ass! Fuck. And so.. Then my boyfriend called and I got into even more trouble. I dislike it when she is unreasonable and angry. Psycho and talks too much, but she's my mean mother. I just hope that I'm not like that. I'd never want to be like her. Isn't that what everyone wishes, but their influence will get to you and you'll be destroyed in the end. The only good this about her are when she laughs or smiles a little bit and jokes around, but sometimes the things she says just aren't funny. She always says that we're going to get fat or get acne from this and that - this and that. Fuck that. I want my hot cocoa. Yet I get angry also for the most stupidest thing, but it's what I want.. Isn't it? I love my boyfriend. I want to play video games. I want my hot cocoa. My simple pleasures get taken away from me, but I have them. At least I have them.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

City of Glass: Mortal Instruments

Sweet Valentines


I want vanilla cake for Valentine's Day. Craving.. The meandering smell and scent that is so sweet and delicious that it makes your saliva begin to emerge from your glands.

me·an·der (m-ndr)
intr.v. me·an·dered, me·an·der·ing, me·an·ders
1. To follow a winding and turning course: Streams tend to meander through level land.
2. To move aimlessly and idly without fixed direction: vagabonds meandering through life. See Synonyms at wander.
n.
1. meanders Circuitous windings or sinuosities, as of a stream or path.
2. A circuitous journey or excursion; ramble. Often used in the plural.
3. An ornamental pattern of winding or intertwining lines, used in art and architecture.

raison d’être

(ray-zohnn DET-ruh) A basic, essential purpose; a reason to exist: “Professor Naylor argues that in the nuclear age, infantry forces have lost their raison d’être.” From French, meaning “reason for being.”